haix.. looks like all e happiness inside of mi is gone...
lost.........

i do not noe wad to do..


shld i or shld i not...


yes or no...


i can't make a decision....

or isit i do not wan to make a decision...

maybe i'm too scared..
too afraid..to tell myself that wad is over is over.. deres no turning back.. or a solution to it..

maybe i shld juz giv up... n be the real mi. the happy mi.. but i can't 4get.. the memories inside my head.. too gd.. too happy.. too deep..

but memories can nvr be 4gotten.. dey onli can juz be hidden in ur head.. not wanting to be rmb..not wanting to be found..

i tried..

i can't.. deres no way out..

i may be like this forever.. i may..

so this is to all who is reading..

sadness is not only being moody, depressed.. even more.. not being able to forget it... the pain.. hurting.. this is wad reali hurts a sad person most..